Past tense: facing family secrets and finding myself in therapy - sacha mardou

A brave and captivating graphic memoir about the power of therapy to heal anxiety and generational trauma When Sacha Mardou turned forty-years-old, she was leading a life that looked perfect on the outside: happily married to the love of her life, enjoying motherhood and her six-year-old daughter, and her first book had just been published.

But for reasons she couldnt explain, the anxiety that had always plagued her only seemed to be getting worse and then, without warning, she began breaking out in terrible acne.

The product of a stoic, working-class British family, Sacha had a deeply seeded distrust of mental health treatment, but now, living the life shed built in the US and desperate for relief, she finds herself in a therapists office for the first time.

There she begins the real work of growing up: learning to understand her family of origin and the childhood trauma she thought shed left hidden in the past but is still entangled in her present life.

Past Tense takes us inside Sachas therapy sessions, which over time become life-changing: She begins to come to terms with her turbulent and complicated upbringing, which centered around her now estranged father, who had a violent relationship with her mother and would later go to prison for sexually abusing her stepsister.

With her therapists guidance, she sees how these wounds and other generational trauma has been passed through her family as far back as her grandmothers experiences during The Blitz of World War Two.

And she discovers modalities that powerfully shape her healing along the way, including the work of Bessel Van der Kolk and Richard Schwartz (Internal Family Systems).

As Sachas emotional life begins to unfreeze and she lets go of the shame shes long held, she realizes that the work shes doing and her love for her family can ripple outward too, changing her relationships now, and creating a new legacy for her daughter.

Bravely told, visceral, and profoundly moving, Past Tense is a story about our power to break free of the past--once and for all--and find hope.